Just another day that i couldn't see her all day. It absolutly sucked! I feel like things are fading between us a little and i don't want that to happen i need to fix that! Today i feel like she is getting upset with me. i just don't know what is going through her mind i know she loves me i just wonder if she feels like we need to hang out more so we can fix this feeling together bcause i know we can we love eachother a lot. I just dont want this relationship to end up like all my others. Me making a horrible mistake and doing something with out thinking and i break her heart and my own. This relationship has honestly been my best relationship since the 7th grade (if you can really count the 7th grade as having a relationship).
Ok other than that, the reason i was away from her was that we went to festival today and we did good i think i did horrible though [i always do (self-esteam issues)]. The rest of the band did great. My band director was actually nervous which never happens and it made me even more nervous!! The funny thing is is that i went to k-state for this concert band clinic and everyone says from that weekend I've gotten so much better at the drum and alot more confident with who i am and how i hold myself, i just don't see it.
Today some people also told me that i need to stop being so nice to people that make me mad. I say but what is the point for being mad at someone that just frustrates me A LOT we are all ending up in the same place (in the ground if you werent gonna guess that....HAHA giggle a little)
OH yeah i forgot something else today my bestfriend was an idiot and stuck 2 metal hangers in an eletrically socket. First he was gonna try with pennys but that didnt work so he found the hangers then WOW!! long story short after he did that he couldnt feel his hands
There it is for tonight hope you had fun reading about my day
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