this is really happening

why are you doing this 2 days before our 5 month the thing ive been looking forward to throughout our relationship in 2 days i can actually say my longest constant and of and on relationship is you why in gods name is this happening if there is a god let him save me now when i truely need it

My Weekend

I wish prom never ended it was a great time hanging out with friends an i love hanging out wit her


she means everything to me

i wish she couldve gone to denny's with us

Wow

I never thought that this amount of pain could be phsically possible

its like someone is literally smashing my spine with a sledge hammer

i wish she was her to help me it hurts so much

Inside joke time

WINDOW, WINDOW, WINDOW, DOOR!!!!!!!

So here we go again

she is totally having to make a choice im not the happiest person in the world...she keeps making plans with her friend even though she has no idea what I'm doing i feel like she doesn't wanna hang out with me sometimes


anyone got anything that could possibly help me out

So...

i found something weird thats been going on people will probably think im mking this up but like when my girlfriend is in pain so am i...its like we are connected some how... and also when shes in pain and the like 10 minutes later shes not then im in twice as much pain

CREEPY

The thing is...

(IF YOU ARE A CHRISTIAN DO NOT READ THIS POST LOL)

For the fact that religon is a very weird subject for people im just gonna come right out and say what i believe is correct.

I believe:

1. jesus was a man that didnt really do anything special he was just sentenced to death in one of the most horrible way possible
2. i dont really think that there is a god i think that there is a being looking over us but i dont think its god
3. that we should all just shut up and pay attention to not just the religon we are and pay attention to the others, if you dont know it dont judge it
4. the bible condredicts itself like what only is a miracle but magic
5. well here is my belief sumed up...IDK

thats it

thanks for reading

Well today was just one of those days...

Just another day that i couldn't see her all day. It absolutly sucked! I feel like things are fading between us a little and i don't want that to happen i need to fix that! Today i feel like she is getting upset with me. i just don't know what is going through her mind i know she loves me i just wonder if she feels like we need to hang out more so we can fix this feeling together bcause i know we can we love eachother a lot. I just dont want this relationship to end up like all my others. Me making a horrible mistake and doing something with out thinking and i break her heart and my own. This relationship has honestly been my best relationship since the 7th grade (if you can really count the 7th grade as having a relationship).

Ok other than that, the reason i was away from her was that we went to festival today and we did good i think i did horrible though [i always do (self-esteam issues)]. The rest of the band did great. My band director was actually nervous which never happens and it made me even more nervous!! The funny thing is is that i went to k-state for this concert band clinic and everyone says from that weekend I've gotten so much better at the drum and alot more confident with who i am and how i hold myself, i just don't see it.

Today some people also told me that i need to stop being so nice to people that make me mad. I say but what is the point for being mad at someone that just frustrates me A LOT we are all ending up in the same place (in the ground if you werent gonna guess that....HAHA giggle a little)

OH yeah i forgot something else today my bestfriend was an idiot and stuck 2 metal hangers in an eletrically socket. First he was gonna try with pennys but that didnt work so he found the hangers then WOW!! long story short after he did that he couldnt feel his hands

There it is for tonight hope you had fun reading about my day

The thing about her

That girl actually makes me feel like im someone to the world and she always makes me feel special. this girl means everything to me and i don't think she honest to god knows it completely yet. i wish she did so she would finally trust me as much as i need to be trusted. The thing about her is that she is the most amazing girlfriend ive had ever like i really hope that i get married to this girl (knocking on wood). She is almost my whole life if she isnt really happy then i feel like i havent done my job as her boyfriend.



And to be honest she is one of the most important people in my life!!!!

McGee's first blog

so the thing is that if you really wanna do this blogging thing correctly (if there really is a correct way to blog...i dont think there is lol) you really need stuff to talk about so yeah ill think of some things and put them up lol